Thursday, August 28, 2014

The truck is no more. It has ceased to be.

I tend to be unreasonably sentimental about inanimate objects. Not everything, but some things. My mind molds them into symbols. For me, the truck was a powerful symbol of Steve's and my relationship. The truck was the first vehicle we bought together, that was truly ours, not solely Steve's or mine. The truck moved us out of the Santa Cruz mountains, pulling a little trailer with all our worldly possessions. It hauled lumber, dirt and supplies to rebuild our beloved house. It transported us to every important event in our life for the past seven years.

Steve and I with our truck right after buying it from brother-in-law Richard in May 2007:

We babied it. We added tinting, a rolling bed cover, spray-in bed liner, upgraded the sound system and added a tow hitch. As a thank you gift for my efforts to help my grandparents in their final years, my dad installed cruise control. The truck was finally perfect. Exactly one week after said cruise control installation, after being able to use that wonderful new feature only a few times, the truck was totaled.

After a frank conversation with the body shop, I finally conceded today that the truck is beyond repair. It will be hauled away to salvage for parts today or tomorrow.

State Farm treated us well throughout this process and gave us a very fair amount of cash for our little truck. Steve and I are now shopping for our new vehicle. There are so many decisions to make... new vs. used, truck vs. small SUV vs. crossover-type-thing, make and model. It makes my head spin. So far I don't love anything I've seen. I didn't want a new car; I wanted our truck back. I suppose I can only throw a fit about it for so long... we'll have to settle on something eventually.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

I prefer to stay at home...

Sometimes there's a price to be paid when venturing out.
First off, Steve and I are both okay. As Steve says, "the truck did what it was supposed to do" and protected us, especially him. It could have been so much worse. The window tint Steve had done on the truck even held the shattered passenger window in place.

I was driving, Steve was in the passenger seat. We were proceeding along a large, four-lane parkway when a mid-sized U-Haul truck (which had a stop sign and should have waited for us to pass) abruptly pulled out of a small side street and smashed into our truck. I swerved to avoid, but the U-Haul broadsided us anyway.

The U-Haul quickly left the scene, pushing our stopped truck out of the way to do so. So quickly in fact, that we couldn't get a good look at the driver or more identifying information on the vehicle (other than, obviously, to see that it was of the U-Haul persuasion) before he/she fled.

I am profoundly shaken up. Not because of the accident, accidents happen. Not because of the callous disregard of the U-Haul driver, people can be thoughtless, this is not news. After Steve and I confirmed to each other that we were uninjured, I got out of the truck feeling okay about the whole thing, but then I saw the damage... to the side of the truck where Steve was sitting just moments before. And I had an overwhelming feeling of failure that I did not somehow prevent what could have done so much more harm to the most important thing in the world to me. But that's life, I suppose. We are all so frail.

We'll find out from the insurance adjuster on Monday if our little truck can be repaired or if it's final act was to valiantly defend Steve from a much larger vehicle. If we can repair it, we will. We owe it that much. Otherwise, well... I guess we'll see.